I used to cheat on my wife when I got the chance, now the girls tell me you don’t exist for us…

I cheated on my wife when I got the chance, now the girls tell me you don’t exist for us…-First of all, I greet you all and I want to remain anonymous. I wanted to tell the story of my life. I am a 39-year-old man, I have been married for 15 years, I have two daughters, and I was very happy with my wife and daughters, but I did not know how to appreciate this happiness… Two years ago, I met another woman, at first I only wanted made fun of it, but then you fell in love with it. I started to leave my wife, every day I started to offend more and more, I started to get caught more and more. My wife used to tell me “what’s wrong with you? Why are you insulting me? Don’t you have another?” But I lied and not now. After a few days she received my messages and I understand them all.. She told me “leave the other one because you have two daughters with me, you forgive everything, go back to normal life; but I didn’t listen to him at all and started to continue that and every day I grabbed my wife and the day came when I couldn’t stand my wife so I left the house. I can’t forget the tears that my wife and my daughters cried when I left the house. I continued 3 months after the other. My wife kept telling me to come home, but I didn’t come back.. After some time I got my girlfriend, she only wanted money and a luxurious life.. I came home.. My daughters were so happy with my wife but I couldn’t love her like before. I entered into a relationship with another woman, I was still cheating on my wife, I thought that this was a beautiful life, but this life was just a game. I used to make fun of my wife when she still loved me and told me to go back to normal life with him, but no, I continued to hate my wife, I could not look her in the eyes, so I continued to insult her every day and now “forget me that why can’t I love you, I want someone else” she told me “Don’t be so wrong because the family is not given for a cu**”, that’s why I mistreated her about why I insult my girlfriend. My wife called the police and they kicked me out of the house. When I left the house, my wife told me “you lost everything, because family is something that has more value than all the others”, the girls told me “daddy, lose us forever because you left us for another”. After a while, I had an incident, when I told my girlfriend she said “go away because I don’t care at all”. Then I realized my mistake. It was not true love. I spent 10 days in the hospital, then I called my wife, I told her the incident I did and she came to the hospital with the girls, she said “what do you want from us now when you leave us? Where is your girlfriend?” Now “my girlfriend has left me” and I apologized to her. My wife said “heal up and then we’ll talk” When I left the hospital I told my wife that I wanted to go home, but she said “no, go back to your girlfriend about why you died”. I asked her for forgiveness, I begged her with all my heart to forgive me, but I could not get my wife to forgive me, but she said “when I beg you to return home, you will leave us” Therefore, I only asked for one more wish: to see your daughters mine”, but they say “Daddy, you’re already dead”. After I made a lot of mistakes, I lost all the most valuable things in this world but I didn’t know it, now I pray to God to forgive me all the mistakes I made and that I can return to my wife. Finally, I want to say to all the men who are married and have children, don’t leave your wife and child for another woman because no one could love you more than your family. Don’t be fooled like me. I wrote my story for a reason.