I have only seen the woman in photos and I met her on the wedding day, I love the children but I have no feelings for her…

Hello life story. Anonymous please. I also wanted to share with you the story of my life and show you my concerns in the hope that you will help me a little with your advice. I am a 33-year-old man, I am married and have 3 children. I love my children very much, but I do not love my wife at all and I have never loved her. But when I was 24 years old, I was in France and I was married to a foreigner, and my parents got engaged to me without my presence, and I listened to my parents’ words and ran away from the foreigner and returned to Kosovo to fulfill my wish. of parents. I have seen the woman I have only from photos and I have only met her live on the wedding day. But I have never been happy with him and I have no feelings for him at all. A few months ago I started talking on Facebook with a woman who was separated from her husband and who has 1 child and lives in Europe, with whom I initially started talking just to pass the time and I didn’t tell her that I was married, but only because I was once married to a foreigner. And that’s how our conversations went on and on, and after only a few days of talking with him, I fell madly in love with him and I love him like crazy. She is the woman I have always dreamed of having close to me. We corresponded in every aspect in every conversation and I can freely say that she is the most perfect woman I have ever known. Well, every day I felt bad that I was lying to her, and seeing her sincerity, kindness, sensitivity, intelligence and manner of behavior and the respect she showed to me, I felt very idiotic that I was lying to her even though from the conversation I had I was convinced that I would lose him because I provoked him sometimes and I could see that he was very against those who separate a man from a woman, but I decided to tell you that I am married and have children. And unfortunately what I was afraid of happened. Because the moment she realized that I have a family, she said that she will have nothing to do with me and told me to stay with your family, love them and take care of them because I didn’t break a family, because you are not the only man in this world. She blocked me on all sides on fb and viber, but I also wrote to her on other fb and made her child unblock me, but now I don’t have a block from her, but she ignores me a lot, doesn’t talk to me , and when he talks to me, he tells me to leave me alone and look at your life. One day she even gave me advice that I should try to love my wife, she told me to pay attention because you will find good things in her and many, many other things, which no girl in her country would tell you. But I can’t give up on this woman, I even want to go to her house and go back until I convince her to be with me and understand that she is the only woman I love. Please help me, tell me what please forgive me if I took it too long and maybe some of you will offend me, but maybe some of you will understand because it’s not my fault that I also want to live with a girl that I love and feel for. children I don’t think I will ever leave you, I will always take care of them, but I also want to live with the woman I love with my soul. Thank you!